Debits and Credits
I know so much less than they credit,
never live up to their expectations,
am afraid of heights yet accept the pedestal
on which they have me stand.
I know more than they credit when it’s over,
where I failed, when they gave up,
what I’m missing that they hope
the next girl will have.
I balance my accounts, calculate
what I learned, what I lost. It always
comes out even.